I was 7 or 8yrs old when my mother would have me drink codeine cough syrup. Not take it as directed just drink from the bottle. My first slumber party consisted of me passing out while my friends played. I was 8yrs old. To start the evening my mother went out drinking the night before. So when I got home from school the door was locked. My friends started to show up but I was locked out. I ended up walking to my father’s house which was roughly 5 blocks away! My mother eventually showed up & some of my friends came back just for her to make me drink this medicine & I was out cold! I remember being 10 & her & her boyfriend both made me drink this medication & I slept for 30hrs straight I couldn’t even walk when I woke up I was so delirious I had to crawl to the bathroom. It wasn’t until later I realized I missed an entire day.
My mother eventually left me when I was 12. Literally dropped me off at my dad’s, said she would come back. She didn’t return until years later. That was the Best thing she ever did for me.
I was very much afraid of my father, who turned out to be my Hero. A day or so after she left me, I prayed for hours to die! Feeling like I was an inconvenience to my father. I’ll never forget 4/1/1997 I fell, ruptured my spleen & kidney and was given 20minutes to live. Interesting having just prayed for God to take me. I wound up in the hospital in ICU for 4 days. God is very real!
I was 12yrs old overweight at 180lbs and Went home with narcotics? I noticed I would instantly feel better while on these drugs?
I had horrible cramps throughout my teen years to the point I would lay in the fetal position for hours, come to find out I had endometriosis! I had surgery & was put through menopause at 16 yrs old. Meanwhile, I was on Percocet! I had multiple surgeries in between
I had multiple surgeries in between due to my endometriosis. I got pregnant at 20 yrs old. I had been told I couldn’t have children. I quit taking the narcotics. Until I had my baby then narcotics came back into my life. Got pregnant again, occasionally took narcotics from my Obgyn. I worked very hard & was in a terrible car accident & discovered I had arthritis in my lower back when my children were very young; I woke up one day realizing I couldn’t function without these drugs. They controlled me; I was taking anywhere from 20-60 pills in a day & people around me had no idea. I don’t know how I didn’t OD. I hid my drug problem not wanting those around me to know how bad I was. After years of struggle, jealous of anyone who didn’t rely on narcotics to get through their day! I tried so many times to get off of them always returning worse than before. Until One day I discovered Subutex; this drug has saved my life! I am a normal, functioning adult because of this medication. I do not abuse it, I don’t have to; it eases my pain & takes any and all cravings away! I am a hard working wife & mother that leads a normal life thanks to Subutex/suboxone. Those that want to talk poorly about this medication probably don’t realize how many people suffer from addiction & end their life because that’s easier than trying to never touch another narcotic! I could never truly repay my doctor/ therapist/nurses. You all are the reason I have strived into a normal woman who works hard and is able to take care of my children! (Tears)
Thank you …..
